Attended my friend’s Halloween party this weekend, which was like an escape from the jumbled mess that’s been going through my head lately.  Didn’t really feel that great the next morning though…how did I become such a light weight drinker??!! lol.  Duo made me feel better though.  Took me out to the beach for a nice long walk with the breeze hitting my face, waking me up, settling down the headache.  It was very relaxing. 

Unfortunately, a walk on the beach was not an option yesterday.  Reality set in and I realized that the production classes that I was enrolled in would not be feasible at this time.  I’ve been stressing out with starting classes this month and not being able to work through my family and financial obligations in time.  Asking for a second extension or a drop from the admission process did not go so well with the admissions director.  I had to hold back from writing this blog yesterday.  I was so frustrated that it would’ve just been a ramble of fury without making any sense.  It was not planned for my grandmother to pass away when she did….It was not planned for my mother’s health to go so crazy that she can’t make the hour and a half drive home from work in the dark….and it was not planned that I could not get a loan to cover the tuition….but it all happened anyways.  And yes, I do choose my family over my “dream career”.  Contrary to his beliefs, I am determined to follow through with this education.  However, it will not be at his center.  There are other options out there that I can turn to once my mother and I move.  This guy has no power over me or my career plans.  I can choose my own path and I’m prepared to deal with the outcome.  So what if it takes a little longer to reach the goal, as long as the goal is reached.